Archive | December, 2017

Gate 2017 almost Closed, Proceed to the Gate 2018

31 Dec



Why things feels rolls so fast?just like a blink of an eye and suddenly it’s almost reach the end of year 2017..Suddenly it’s already reach my 2nd year of marriage with a daughter that already turns 1 year old and my family already stay in Bogor for more than a year…

Feels like I missed all of the moments that were happen during this whole year. I feel like missed all of the event in a blink of eye. I feels like I waste so many times, but in the fact I did so many things. Some were standard, some were just left out and some were just a milestone. Some were happy, fun and exciting, but sad and sorrow also complete it too.

In general, things in 2017 were mostly mean and harsh, uncomfortable. People tends so hype at religion, they’re become fanatic, but then forget what religion are for. Most of them become morale police and thank God internet, they spread so fast like an outbreak. People you known before are changing. aggressive, hateful, self-righteous and love to judge in the name of religion. Some of them are actually insecure for their state of obedience, therefore they start to seek other’s privacy just to be told a better person. Thank God again with the internet, these people become so vocal in social media.


Actually this first happen because of the polarization of political atmosphere and their the religion sentiment took place to shake your faith and common sense. logical fallacy, hoax, double standard, made people lost somewhere. No matter how high they enroll their education.


That’s also a golden moment for some cults to penetrate the society such as, flat earth community, anti-vaccine, racist, terrorism, etc.

While the capitalism harvesting the hype too. Then people start to block one to another just because a different preference and it’s happen to me too. Time wasted as more just annoying debate and it’s not a discussion at all. So social media less fun nowadays. Well it’s a self-note to myself when I got irritated with people who boldly think different,  some of them would feel the same like me and pissed. I always try to keep in mind that is normal to have different interest, but don’t let it lead into an ignorance, intolerance, friction and ruined your relationship. Especially with those who had good relation  before. So sometime with those kind of consideration, I tried to hold my opinion to be post, though it’s feels like an apathy. There are a lot of bigger things to fight actually.


You still see how cruelty still happen in animal, you still see how wildlife crime still happen. The fact that it can affect our healthy environment and our healthy state, it affect how we treat the marginals and it also affect us in the way to afford the social justice in society.  As Gandhi said the greatness of a nation can be judged by the way its animals are treated and it also can be related in one health concept.


“The greatness of a nation can be judged by the way its animals are treated.” – Gandhi


While in the other parts of the world, there’s  a stupid person who apparently has super power and doesn’t care about climate change (he doesn’t even think it’s exist!!) as the matter of his money. This is a huge problem for at least in the next  4 years, if it not gone too far and bigger.



I keep remind that we, human,  are responsible for anything in the past, present and the future. So yeah, I still stay and struggle to take care what the almighty has gave us. To become a small part of the mother earth protector. In the whole year, I tried to save the wildlife, promote their welfare, in this case are slow lorises and macaques. I tried to change my way of life slowly. I tried to spread the awareness slowly too, start with my family, especially my daughter, who will become our better hope for the future.


Sadness will always complete your day, to make you stay sane, though sometime it depressed you and drive the insanity. That also happened to me this year. Started with cheesy things like my broken laptop, broken phone, broken motorbike, and other things.


Continued with how barely I almost failed to survive myself and family everyday was. How some close people still  disturb my comfort zone was. How learning through an experience was such as marriage and parenting are quite stressful and exhausting. How your professional works not good enough for a better result were.  Not enough just that, I lost some friends around the mid of this year. A buddy back in the university, one of  funniest person, died earlier in young age due to his illness. Felt sad, since I couldn’t come to his wedding, couple months before. Another one, my childhood friend, who ended her life by suicide after drowned by her sorrow. Also not forget to mention about the lost of our cat, Doraemon. Well he just a stray cats that often stayed at our house for almost a year. We first met him since the earlier day we live in this house. Then we decided to start a spay and neuter project for stray cats in our neighborhood and he was the 2nd cats. Since that time, he was more attached to us. As he also the first cat that we introduced to Gemi and they quite along. His calm attitude really friendly for children, no matter how rough the touch of Gemi was. But he got older, then he was gone like couple weeks and come back but then looked so much ill until a week after he disappear forever.

Another lost also for us in the clinic, we rescued an injured cat and treated him. One of his hind leg got necrotic and we had to do the amputation. We called him Utut aka toothless. After that he become a resident cat with a lovely attitude. But  couple weeks ago he died by a venomous snake bite.


I don’t know if those things mentioned above also affect my health state and fitness. But as a highlight of this year, I felt like so easy to be ill, easy to be tired and exhausted. I got like almost 8 influenza this year, even though only half of it that made me really drop. But it’s difficult for my body also to get recover after the illness. It took almost 2 weeks to get well after a flu and it’s has to be help by antibiotic. I once had almost 3 months of dry cough after a flu. The worst one, I had an hemorraghic- keratoconjuctivitis with influenza a few weeks ago.


The fact that i just recovered from an influenza before the eye infection. I tried to change my diet, I didn’t had a frequent work-out since I was too tired for the works. My belly was getting bigger, more hair turns to white, easy to get exhausted. I’m getting older in this 31 years of my life. My body seems almost give up..Then my wife started to worry. She keeps tell me to not die earlier…

Well, those are my problem during this year. How about my productivity ? I failed to produce any paper for a scientific journal, but I did make 2 papers for 2 conferences. 1 oral presentation for the conference and it’s the ASCM! I did it again!

I also gave a class about conservation medicine to vet students in Padjadjaran University, Bandung.

That was fun! As a milestone, this year I think I did so many surgeries, more than last year. I did surgeries in my work place (mostly dental surgeries in primates, vasectomy-castration in primates and spay/neuter cat).  I did also some in my house (spay/neuter for stray cats). Before I never want to do any surgeries and mostly I only assisted the surgeon for anesthesia monitoring. So yeah, I did it!finally

This year I got less fieldwork duty, it’s just 1 trip of slow loris release and 1 trip of supervised slow loris in one of our rescue shelter in Malang.

In contrary for my state of health, I did really great physical effort during the release work. It’s on Ramadhan and I survived the day in fasting eventhough I walked for so many kilos in quite bad ass track!


though it’s not too often going outside but at present I easily got homesick, especially when I miss my daughter..So I guess I’m not as strong as it used to be….


What makes me happy for this year? Well me and my family still survive and happily ever after. My daughter getting bigger, my wife quite adapt for her role as a mother and housewives, our parents are healthy and happy too.

I was happy to join the ASCM again.

IMG_20171114_182930_239 The bottom line is I’m happy no matter some bad things happen to me or my family, since we still alive and in every worst stage of my life, I believe that there’s someone else with worse condition. That’s why I should always feel thankful and happy for that.

Some goals were failed at this year but again, there’s still a chance for next year. I just have to trying harder, or probably my target are just too high, so I may drop my standard a lil’ bit.

For next year, I plan some things that hopefully I could done. More scientific publication (especially the international one!), participate in ASCM again and start to aim it diploma maybe, involve with a different community just for the sake of conservation, run more frequent and consistent surgeries with better standard and result, involve more with student to share my knowledge, work hard to gain more money for D’alton Project, to be a better husband and father and trying to stay alive as long as ever just like what my wife asked.

Well just in couple hours the 2017 gate will be close, and another gate will be open. it’s 2018 and let’s get it on!

We spend the new year’s eve at home again, the baby girl is already sleep, we had a great dinner and to wait until the year’s change we already got supplies of Hok Lo Pan and Martabak! Enjoy your new year’s eve everybody! Keep in faith!


ASCM 2017 : I Did It There!

28 Dec


After 2 months! Finally I get the time to make this! At least before the year change, I have to post it!! (Well if you read it after 2017 already past, the I fail again!)

Asian Society of Conservation Medicine (ASCM) is a great networking group of vets (mostly wildlife or zoo vets) in Asia and it really has a great relationship with me. Professionally and emotionally too. Previously they were known as Asian Zoo/Wildlife Medicine and Conservation.


In 2008, they held the conference in Bogor, Indonesia and that was my first participation in the event. I was in the university and joined with my friends to go there, supported by our seniors. We presented a poster about our activity in sea turtle’s basic observation there.


Then time flew, in 2012, I participated again in their event in Thailand, at that time they already changed their name into Asian Society of Zoo and Wildlife Medicine. I was presenting 2 oral presentations and 1 poster presentation. That was my first time experience to travel abroad. Very emotional for sure, since I came as my organization’s representation but minimum  support and appreciation. So my parents funded me (yeaay!), then I also share fund to my junior who her theses and research were funded by me since her paper accepted for poster presentation there.



A year later I attended the conference again in Singapore, this time I worked very hard to find a fund. I made it in the last minute. But then I messed up with the presentations. Lousy topic, lousy presentation and preparation..But i had a great experience in their post conference workshop, the reptile endoscopy.

But then i never expected that it’s my last time participation with the society. Until 4 years later….


Well this year, the conference was held in Kuching. I tried very hard to work a paper to submit. Nothing wrong with paper, though it’s not a perfect paper and cheesy topics. But it’s a compilation of record of clinical findings in our Javan slow loris post-release activity, I have to look so many data and stuff. However the problem it’s not only that. Four years in absent of this conference, many things has changed. We have to register and submit the paper online, including to complete the payment first so we can get a validation for the account registration. Well I’m kinda short and still trying to look for fund and to get a fund at least you have to show the acceptance of any kind presentation (well this is as my standard). To send any paper you need to have the registration’s account, means I almost in the dead end, until Alice (the secretary) really help me with an access to on spot registration form. So I could send my paper, then I have to wait couple weeks until my paper accepted to be presented. Surprisingly a week after the submission, I got an email for my paper’s revision. In my entire history of this conference, this is my first time to get a revision order. Even I already tried to review it to many people first. I mean, this probably was my best paper so far. Again, things change in 4 years. Sometime when I tried to review my old papers, it just feels like rubbish. But when I submitted in the couple previous similar conference, no revision at all! LOL!

Anyway my paper got accepted for the oral presentation in almost late time, I succeed for the fund and finally I could attend the conference again!!yeyeyeyeyyeyeye…..!!

I tried to prepare many things. Got my funds and cashed it, finished my presentation and reviewed it to many people and revised it again after so many good inputs. Charts, pictures, videos and then I practiced the presentation also. and revised again until I really satisfy and confident enough for my presentation. I had to finish everything before left to Kuching, I have to make sure everything well prepare so I could just enjoy the event there without being distracted by any other thing. For other reason is, my laptop was already broken, I couldn’t afford the new one and didn’t planning to bring any other. So it’s my first conference experience without any laptop.


Anyway, I reached Kuching after flew from Jakarta then transit in Pontianak. I slept less than 3 hours the night before, left my house at 3 a.m. to catch the flight at 8am (Jakarta’s traffic really absurd, so you better move earlier). Things was okay with the flight, I transit in Pontianak and met with work-mate there and stepped in Kuching on time. But the problem, I was very hungry. The last time I ate was at 2 a.m. and it’s already 3 p.m.! Luckily I could find the nearest McDonald’s.


dododododoo..I’m lovin’ it! it’s cheaper than in Indonesia!

I was exhausted, sleepy and hungry. So yeah, I survived for lunch then at dinner I joined my friends near the riverside.


not bad for a small room in a hostel




Kuching statue :p

So the ASCM meeting was held at 20-22 October 2017. 21-22 October was the conference and a day before they ran some pre-conference workshops, USG on small mammals and wildlife pathology and forensic. I joined the wildlife pathology and forensic workshop. And here I told you a stupid story of me…When go abroad, of course internet network is a problem, unless you had the local SIM card. So at very near the workshop day, the announcement spread by email. It contains of schedule and meeting point. Since the workshop place located in a far-faraway place in state veterinary lab, then from that place, we would move to the conference’s place (which is in another faraway hotel from the city). The email didn’t reach me (well actually it did, but in my other email and why the fuck my phone didn’t notify me ??!). Well but it’s okay. Since I wake very early and planned to met my workmate at 7 in her hotel then decide where we should go. Eventually and accidentally I met the workshop’s lecturer during my way to my friend’s hotel. His name was Chia-Da Hsu, I remember him since my manager already showed his Facebook account and we did communicated by email before. So, he told me that workshop will start at 9am, the meeting point was in my friend’s hotel and the shuttle would be left at 7.30 (for the lecturer) and 8 for the participants (It’s my first time to meet him and it’s awkward).. In the hotel I saw so many people already put their belonging to the mini bus. But here I started my stupidity again. 1, I straight to the lobby to wait until the actual time while I await my friend ready. 2, I didn’t ask anyone again there soon, even I met some familiar faces back from 4 years ago. Then until time was running out, people gone, hotel seem quiet and I ask the hotel’s staff who apparently didn’t know anything about the ASCM and what made it so perfect is, my friend hadn’t show up from her room….Then I met another familiar face which is Junpei Kimura, who is the general secretary of ASCM, I asked about the shuttle bus stuff to the workshop place. Then he just shocked and told me that they already left several minutes ago! ( and I was  just so fucked up.yeah). Luckily he ran outside and stop the remaining committee and there were Takuma Yanai (the head of ASCM’s senior board) and Alice Lau (the secretary, who correspondent with me all time since my registration trouble, included to ask her for extra person in the workshop for my workmate). Yeah, it’s an awkward first meeting and very great impression. Alice bit upset for me, since she saw me at the first time I reached the hotel. And my excuse is, I waited for my friend. Without wasting for more time, we just carry on to the destination. But just we turned to other way and passed the hotel, I saw my friend walked in relax. So I asked them to stop, to wait for her. And finally after all those shitty things, we hit the pedal to the workshop place. I was very embarrassed for this and here we are the stereotypical Indonesia, the late people..The journey seems awkward too because I didn’t have any topic to talk, but I’m amazed to see how my friend looked cool and innocent….The morale lesson is, don’t hesitate to ask anyone ASAP and be selfish.

We arrived on time in the state veterinary lab and straight to registration (luckily, yet I still felt very ashamed). I finished my payment then continued to the class. The workshop was started with introduction of every participants as ice breaking. After that we had some theories like general wildlife pathology, general veterinary forensic, and general guideline of necropsy photography.


Then we break for lunch and then heading to the wet lab for a necropsy practice. We were divided in couple groups and got 3 different animals for necropsy practice; turtle, bird and a mammal (at that time my group had a slow loris carcass!yeay!!). Well basically for the mammal and it’s in a slow loris, had no  different than the way that I did in my place. But seriously, Chia-Da performed and teach the better and neat procedures of necropsy. As he could presented and exposed the organs very clear, so we could see the anomaly of the carcass easily.  By his way. I could see more critical points of examination than the way I used to do.. This is very enriching for sure!

After the workshop done, we were wait for bus pick-up to Damai resort where the conference would be held a day later. I was very exhausted since in the last two days, I just slept not even more than 6 hours. I just overslept on the way to the hotel. It almost 1,5 hours and the traffic quite jam.

Touched down the hotel, straight to the lobby for check in, then another problem popped out. Because of my clumsiness to state out my flight’s schedule, the hotel got confused for my reservation eventhough I already stated the actual plan and booking date. I should have just stay for 3 nights, but the hotel charged me for 5 nights.And it’s my office and donor money. Great!So I just skipped it first, since I was tired, probably the jetlag stuff still bother me, and I was hungry for sure. The fact that the hotel looked so isolated from the civilization and the hotel’s meals were expensive. The WiFi was sucks also, so I went out to the lobby again after spent couple minute in the fancy room.


Fancy and big room huh!

I met Sumita who’s the wife of Reuben, the local chairman of the conference. She said there were free dinner in the bar as the welcome party of participants. Hell yeah, dinner time! So I ate and socialized with old faces! Woaaaw….this is so good..after 4 years, I could meet these people again! And I did make sure eat a lot as I didn’t want to get starving.

Remember my mission to not bother my presentation anymore after I finished it? Well I failed, I got some mistakes issues on my slide of presentation when I was practicing it with my phone. So I borrowed my friend’s laptop to review and revised it again. The fact that nothing wrong happen, it’s just stupid things appear in a different device, but I then changed some color’s font to make it looked well. Then I went to sleep to recover my energy.


Awake in the D-day earlier. I decided to walk around the hotel as it has beach and seaside view.


Hang out at the lobby for WiFi (seriously the WiFi so sucks, as I had to connect to the hotel’s admin network in lobby area for internet). Met Junpei again. Talked about how the organization of ASCM improved, how it goes for the yesterday’s workshop and how it would goes for the conference. As more people appeared in the restaurant for breakfast, I decided to go back to my room, took a bath, change my clothes and straight for breakfast. There then I met the rest of Indonesian participants. So in total it should be about 7 Indonesian. Me and Uwi from the IAR Indonesia, 2 persons (Rico and Pandu) from OIC and SOCP, Prof. Bambang from IPB,  dr. Kadek from Udayana Universities and not forget to mention Lina, my former partner in Kalaweit who become a student of Seoul University at present.


Endonesa!endonesa!! –>Indonesian contingent minus Dr. Kadek

The conference started! I was so nervous, I really cautious for everything. Started with earlier presentation submit to the committee.

Set the folder very neat with all of the video attachment there. Then just couple minute before my session started, I did the double check to make sure that the presentation was okay. Well my session was started after the second coffee break, which was around 3 p.m. I had plenty time to relax, enjoy the other session and presentation.


To be honest, the conference run very well and quite smooth. Set on time, the session divided very fair and in a good arrangement with so many interesting topics. The food were great too… I was glad that i could alive during the conference without losing glucose or even caffeine support to my brain and eyes..but then the time was getting closer to my show time…

It’s my turn to give the talk! I was so nervous, my voice was trembling, the tone sounded loss of pitch, I was a bit shaking.. I tried to make it more comfy by throwing some interactions between the audiences, yet it succeed so I started to gain for more confident. My slide went smooth, the video played successfully, although I pressed the wrong button. But then there was a disturbance, I did edited one slide since the font’s color not too clear, but in the end the words just gone! Luckily I wasn’t that panic, so I could finish it until the end of the presentation. During the discussion, there was only one person who asked some questions, but then the questions almost out of the context. So this is quite confusing me whether people really understand or not. LOL! But finally, I did my presentation again there! With a better topic, better execution and this is so relieving! After many months of preparation, stressful works and so many blocks…pheew…


After the presentation, I straight to the lobby again. Then the hotel had a good policy about the reservation mistake. They would refund the rest of the day in cash, later after I checked out! Thank god!

So I was very happy and relaxed. Spent the day by hang out with other Indonesian fellow then prepared myself for the gala dinner. So I took a bath then gathered with other people. I sit in a round table with some of Indonesian and the rest were the Singapore zoo guys and OPCF Hongkong.


they drunk as hell for sure!

Then people started to drunk and we, the Indonesian were bored after finished the meals. So we left the place earlier and took a walk to the outside, the civilization. Apparently there was a small path connected to the world. There was a hostel there, with cheaper price! Around the hostel, there was a food court and 711! Gosh! I should’ve stay there! So yeah, we bought some stuff like snack and ice cream in the 711, then hang out in one of our room. Had some chat and joke. Then we split back to our room for rest.


we are young!

Well at the second day, I already felt calm. Just enjoy the rest of the session. But also talked with some other people about the next year conference that would be held in Bali. I tried to connect the board and the local organizer with the Indonesian Wildlife Vet Association, as I am one of the junior board there. Hopefully they would considered my idea. Then after session by session, the conference reached it end. At the closing ceremony there were also announcement for best oral and best poster presentation also the winner of photo contest. Amazingly Indonesian participants won the best oral presentation and 2nd place of photo contest! But too bad it’s not me, LOL!I should worked it harder next time.

bit weird to see these two people win the competition LOL!

After the announcement, we had a big photo session together with all of the participants then continued with closing ice breaker in the bar. Alcohol again, so most of the Indonesian stayed outside the bar, some were smoking, and some just enjoy the rain. We asked for non-alcohol drink, but the bar almost charged us. Luckily in the end, we got a free non-alcohol juice..yessss! After the rain stop, all of the Indonesian decided to walk to the food court outside or dinner then again continued with chit-chat and snack in the same room like the day before.


The last day in the hotel, me, Uwi, Pandu and Rico decided to travel around the town. So we planned to check out from the hotel around 10, after the breakfast. During breakfast we meet some guys who prepared their diploma exam. Yes, the ASCM also arranged a diploma program of conservation medicine. Each year, after the conference, they will held exams for the registered candidates. While we gathered around, there came Junpei, who joked with me, by saying “I saved your life that day man!” (Yes, the pre-conference workshop! LOL!) Then the diploma candidates left the restaurant earlier and so did us couple minutes later to prepare our goods. After our check out stuff done, we hitched an Uber to the town and we were lucky we got a good car(a brand new ford ranger haha!). Stopped at Uwi’s hotel first, to drop our bags. Then we walked around the riverside area. Had lunch, tried some different mall, visited an old and famous coffee shop there, hang out and eating some snack again, enjoyed the riverside view. We were bit unlucky during dinner, heavy rain happen with strong wind. It stop after like an hour, then we could continue dinner, the shopped in souvenir shop. Then we end journey in Kuching that night, as each of us had to fly to Indonesia in the morning with different flights.

great mural YO!

welcome and goodbye!

chill and hangout


Bata does exist in kuching!


Local wisdom!

Gosh..such an emotional journey! To look back in the past, how I could joined this conference experience this ambiance again..I just glad and happy to say that, “ I did it again!” and I’m very excited for the next conference. I’m very excited too if I could start to aim the diploma in the next couple years..

Dear lord, please lead me to the way..and thank you for all of these opportunities…

High appreciation to the ASCM’s board (especially the wonder woman Alice!), the local organizer (they organized a flawless conference dude!), and thank you KFGB for funded me to this event!